Sunday, January 31, 2010

People say that you should write what you know. I used to write books with characters that resembled my friends. They could tell-and some weren't very happy with it. Others would make comments-

"Do you really think I act like that?" (I'm afraid so...I didn't even add anything to be funny, that is how you are)

"Why can't I be described as someone with a perfect body?" (um, because you don't have one? The only person who has that is Barbie and sorry, but she's not real)

"How come she gets a boyfriend?" (um, cause she really has a boyfriend in real life and you've never had one, so I don't even know how you'd act with one...).

That's when I decided that maybe I should make the characters so far from real life that they couldn't be passed off as my friends. But I had been writing my friends as characters for so long, that they still ended up being in the stories, they just had extra qualities, different types of humor, or different colored hair. But in essense, it was still basically them.

You know what I think? We can try to change who we are-we can color our hair, pick up new hobbies, tell jokes we don't think our funny-but the still us will always be there. Just because you try to change who you are to impress someone doesn't mean you've "lost" who you are-it just means you've hidden it while you tried on a different "you". But you should know that the original you is great and you should keep it in your life. Why trade in who you were created to be? Why change who God wants you to be?

And you want to know what else is funny? I was going to change my blog style-try to write in a different way, but why should I do that? Just because no one comments on my blogs does not mean that it isn't helping someone in someway. It's helping me just to write out my thoughts, although I also have journals for that. But when I do decide to write, it's always inspiring to me and helpful. So that's why I'm not changing my style.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Fresh Start

So I haven't been on this blog in a long time. Oh well.

It's really late at night, and I should probably be in bed. The key word "should". Since when do I do what I should? I like people I shouldn't, I obssess about the stupidest things, and I continue to hold onto my "morals" when even I start to question them. Oh, don't get me wrong. I will never compromise what is most important to me. But sometimes I question if I'm too picky when it comes to guys. Do I have to have a guy who has the same belief as me, or can it differ just a little bit? But now I know that I will not compromise who I am or what I believe just because sometimes it can get lonely. I want to marry a strong Christian man, and that's final.

And that's why I'm finally happy single. I have plans for next year, and a guy will just get in the way. Besides, most of the guys around here are only looking for a good time, and it's time I started planning for the future. Being happy with who you are is so important. If you don't love yourself, how can you expect anyone else to love you? Once you are happy with who you are, and realize you don't need a man to be happy, you will finally find true love. Because it comes why you aren't looking. I know that from experience.

Sure, this post may seem "lame" to some. But I'm not trying to please anyone-not even myself. It's late at night, and I'm just getting some thoughts out before I go to bed. If you think this is dumb, you didn't have to read it. You choose to. Remember, you make the choices in your life. No one can make them for you. And if they are, realize that something is wrong, and get out. It might be the first right choice you'll make.